Lately my feelings are mixed up. I've tried to calm myself and figure out where have I done wrong. Then I realized there's no point of doing that. Everyone around me made for me decisions and I've stopped it. I've tried to fix a long friendship, but it feels like she doesn't care. She said in the beginning that she has been avoiding me and everyone else. I've been also avoided her. But she took it to a whole different level and I think she knows it. Lately it's been really hard for me not because of her but also life. Today I woke up with a clear mind and decided not to avoid life but face it. I think when it comes to yourself and of who you truly are, you shouldn't avoid it. Actually what I mean is. Are you truly honest to yourself ? Are you pretending to be someone else for infact your not ? Can we truly tell if we are controlling our lives or somebody else is doing it for you. There's always somebody who's trying to control you. You just gotta remember not to lose yourself in it.
I guess there's no one who can answer these questions for you but yourself.
I took these pictures of Jenna a long time ago in Helsinki.